I feel so much better than I have in a while. This past month has literally been insane and I’ve had to run so fast to keep up that I haven’t had time to process the enormity of anything that was happening around me or even acknowledge how tired or stressed I was. I finally got a chance to slow down this week and everything just kind of hit me like a ton of bricks and knocked me right on my ass.
This week has been, in a word, stressful. It’s difficult to process everything at once so I’ve been out of it for most of the week trying to sort everything out, let myself feel what I needed to feel, then move on. I’ve had anxiety attacks all week that I suppose I was really just putting off until I was at a better time to handle them. If you’ve been around me at all this week I’m sure you probably noticed something was up. But don’t fret, I’m fine. Just processing.
Yesterday I promised myself that being a mess would only contain itself to a week. And today is friday, the end of said week. And I feel so much better today. It’s easier to breathe, I feel great. I haven’t had human contact with really anyone today and I still find myself smiling. Yesterday a friend surprised me with a single flower on my desk when I came into class to try to make me smile. It worked.
So really, thank you to everyone who has been in my life this past month and have been such a wonderful support system. Thank you for being so understanding throughout everything. You guys are some of the best friends a lass could ask for.